okay i know i'm not supposed to blog anymore but whatever larh i need to blog to understand myself better. really don't know who i am D:

didn't go church today because dad came back from usa,
or maybe i could have gone but didn't want to go.
keep telling mum and dad i want to change church but...
i don't know.

maybe i just want to go back to the days when the whole family went to church together and had lunch together after that/;
maybe i miss hanging about with my parents cell group children...i just want to play and explore with them again D:

i want to be innocent all over again.

ohwells things will never ever be the same again.

okay whatever larh, don't want to think anymore.

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FRIDAY with BMT JUNIORS and LIMDIXUN

went out to do homework with the juniors on friday.
and was late HAHAS. joycelin arhh pass your tediousness to me.

ohwells anws by time i reached there they already ate fin and had started doing homework.
except joyclyn and cathy those siao ding dongs! hahas. they were like playing snap zzzz.

so i decided to hack homework and play with them.
SIRREOUSLY not going to bother bout homework anymore.
so while hardworking people like wendy and rachel were doing homework, joyclyn cathy and i were making a fool out of ourselves by making alot of noise. that earned us numerous stares from the people around us. HAHAHA.

hmms we did many embarrassing things at macs i guess, but heyy it's all normal... for them XD.
joycelyn did the stupid macdonald trick that only people like cathy would for fall it TWICE. Cathy was being herself. LOLS. super stupid. Rachel Wendy and I were like the only sane ones like can!! HAHAHA.

after macdonalds we went to vivo to play water. wendy and i were spared cause our best friends were there. joycelyn rachel and cathy were like wet shit. HAHAHAHAS! noobos larh they. rachel was super malu cause she kept shouting (at the top of her lungs) "I'm wearing black! i'm wearing black bra!!"ZZZ. hahhas!

after we were all wet in some sense, we started making body prints on the ground. boobs. butt. BLAH. anything that u can think of, we had a print! super funnaye. dixun came soon after and we headed of to training.boo.

i realised i've really lost all passion for bmt. i just don't feel like playing bmt anymore.
whatever.. but i enjoyed training on fri. surprisingly. maybe cause i didn't have to play at all.
:D

went out for dinner with juniors and xun after training . and went home.
so much for homework day.

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why i like hanging with my juniors so much?

cause they are a nice break from all the emoness bmt emits.
they make me feel mature yet crazy and i dunno
they make me laugh.
really laugh.

and i love them. everyone single one of them.

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ANYWAYS

i've got new resolutions/;
for term 2

1. i'm not going to talk to any guy unless absolutely necessary.
2. i'm not going to sleep in class
3. i'm going to achieve gpa 3.2
4. i'm going to go to church ontime every week
5. i'm going to sleep by 11 everyday
6. i'm going to fast from 11 to 5 everyday.
7. i'm going to talk to someone in class that i never talk with before.

okay thats all.