and i caught the emo bug all over again.

school started today, it was a "blast"
lessons per normal was extremely unbearable.
it's like being taken out of paradise and thrown in to a bustling road where you have to struggle through the throng of people just to reach that ultimate destination. GPA 3.2.

i'm tired of trying not to bother about what people say or blah.
cause i can't. i get super affected easily. and i don't know.... i'm not super woman.
i can't conceal my feelings.

andand maybe i'm like xinmun building hatred inside of me. it's like hatred a contagious disease that slowly conquers every part of your body. soul. and mind. and you can't avoid it.
actually no. i don't really have hatred inside of me, all i have is this numbness D:
i wish i were everything i ain't now. i wish i was exactly the opposite.

i wish i were a joycelin or a xinmun or a someone mature.
someone that's discipline hardworking and not affected by anything.

the four walls of my room comfort me.
the four years spent is rv comes down to nada.
the four months this year has been terrible.
the four days more of school i have to sit through this week seems like eternity.
four is such a terrible vile word. i hate 2009.

okay whatever i don't really know what i'm blogging about.