Been doing alot of reflecting lately, and i realised alot of my actions and my words do not glorify God in anyway.
Dear God, im sorry for depending on my own strength and turning to things of the world. i repent. please forgive me?
going to fast from social media and food for awhile. need to really get my life in order and jesus in the centre of my life. so cheerios i'm going on a long hiatus.
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Friday, February 22, 2013
LOVE.
I feel loved.
Hi guys let today be a brand new start! to studying hard! to walking closer to god!
i love you guys T.T
Lots and Lots of love Gayle
Sunday, September 09, 2012
a box
Random thought of the day: what's my purpose in life? what's my gifting?
All our lives can be surmised into a box.
When we die and hopefully embark to heaven, we leave behind a life that can be packed away into a box. Perhaps some of us have numerous boxes that can fill up a lorry or maybe an indefinitely huge box (that has a cubic area larger then China), containing everything we ever owned and everything we ever hoped to have owned. Boxes filled with furniture, clothing, IT gagets, pictures signifying memories, money, diaries, certificates... everything. Everything under the sun. Then there are some who have only a tiny box containing the remnants of their ash to account for their entire lives.
At 19 the supposed "peak" of my life, i really wonder what my box will be like. will my box be filled with gifts from loved ones? encouraging love letters and cards from friends? beautiful pictures capturing the wonderful times i spent with people i love? or will it be filled with nothing. nothing at all (at least nothing of significance). All these pondering and self reflection led me to this one big question: What do i want my box to be filled with?
What do i want to achieve at the end of this life? What is important to me? I want to be successful. i want to be a genius. i want to be a scholar. i want to be respected in the field i eventually choose to go into, i want to have a close knit family, i want to be healthy, i want to have a nice house when i can redecorate and keep tidy, i want to have financial freedom, buying whatever i want whenever i want. i want to be able to eat and eat and eat but never grow fat. i want so many so many so many things.
And you know what all these "i wants" made me understand? it just made me see how self centred and not God centred i am. I want this and I want that, what happened to what God wants?. I really feel that i have such a wrong attitude towards God and his purpose for my life. I know it's not wrong to hope to achieve all my wants but i also know that i need to align these wants with what God wants for my life.
it's about time i start asking God for a brand new heart. a heart that is totally honest and forthright with Him. in the next 40days i will seek you lord, please will you help me lord i really need you lord., and it's know it's not going to be an easy thing but dear God i really want to humble myself before you and just please give me a brand new heart.
All our lives can be surmised into a box.
When we die and hopefully embark to heaven, we leave behind a life that can be packed away into a box. Perhaps some of us have numerous boxes that can fill up a lorry or maybe an indefinitely huge box (that has a cubic area larger then China), containing everything we ever owned and everything we ever hoped to have owned. Boxes filled with furniture, clothing, IT gagets, pictures signifying memories, money, diaries, certificates... everything. Everything under the sun. Then there are some who have only a tiny box containing the remnants of their ash to account for their entire lives.
At 19 the supposed "peak" of my life, i really wonder what my box will be like. will my box be filled with gifts from loved ones? encouraging love letters and cards from friends? beautiful pictures capturing the wonderful times i spent with people i love? or will it be filled with nothing. nothing at all (at least nothing of significance). All these pondering and self reflection led me to this one big question: What do i want my box to be filled with?
What do i want to achieve at the end of this life? What is important to me? I want to be successful. i want to be a genius. i want to be a scholar. i want to be respected in the field i eventually choose to go into, i want to have a close knit family, i want to be healthy, i want to have a nice house when i can redecorate and keep tidy, i want to have financial freedom, buying whatever i want whenever i want. i want to be able to eat and eat and eat but never grow fat. i want so many so many so many things.
And you know what all these "i wants" made me understand? it just made me see how self centred and not God centred i am. I want this and I want that, what happened to what God wants?. I really feel that i have such a wrong attitude towards God and his purpose for my life. I know it's not wrong to hope to achieve all my wants but i also know that i need to align these wants with what God wants for my life.
it's about time i start asking God for a brand new heart. a heart that is totally honest and forthright with Him. in the next 40days i will seek you lord, please will you help me lord i really need you lord., and it's know it's not going to be an easy thing but dear God i really want to humble myself before you and just please give me a brand new heart.
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