don't know larh just feel like droning all my weirded feelings.
i just feel weird larh. just full of
and i don't know how to put into words.
i was late again today. That sucked.
i don't know how to say it but i felt disapointed.
VERY disapointed. cause it was like God played a fool on me.
i mean i woke up and left the house like really early.
and i really sincredly prayed to God to not let me be late.
but some how the prayer wasn't answered.
i felt like i was bluffed or something.
and it was like everytime i'm late there will be NO morning assembly
and mdm C.C and mrs F.C will always be there D:
and i wanted to prove to them that i could change but it's like they have a WORST
impression on me. i just feel stupid D:
these few days i just felt like God does not care 'bout me
and i feel really down in the lows.
it's like i "got" into the team and now it's like don't know that kind of thing.
and i really put in ALOT of effort D:
and i really WANT to be in the team.
dear lord,
i really pray that you'll guide me in whatever i do
and make me perform and put all my effort into projects.
i don't know lor. i really tried SO hard to change
but it just doesn't seem to work out.i still suck lor.
then it's like i'm not supposed to be easily pissed at anyone
and i am pissed by EVERYONE.
so i sort of feel pissed and UNpissed all the time D:.
it's like pms larh. but i just don't know
thats something i really wanna work on.
then it's like bmt larh.
it's like EVERYONE have their own "clicks"
then i feel a bit left out lar.
and moreover i don't know how to sing and stuff D:
somehow i just don't anything anymore D:
and then it's like i keep lying to myself.
i KNOW i still like him.
but i just don't want to admit it larh.
i don't know i just feel that he likes somebody else lor.
then it's like i want him to tell me that he likes THAT person.
and then i will stop liking him.
but then it's like half of me wants him to say he does NOT like her.
so it's like really confusing.
life's just so weird.
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