As you all may or maynot know, fcbc has gone into 40 days of prayer and fasting. During this 40 days church services have been cancelled and 24hr prayer sessions have been going on everyday. Really very happy to be able to really have these forty days to reflect and repent for all the sins I have committed.
Today was one of the rare days I went down to church to pray. And I admit that I have been not putting god as a priority in my life. And today's visit to church was really a rude awakening to how much I really need god in my life. Indeed all things of the world are temporal, nothing lasts for eternity, be it good grades, money, good looks, and even relationships (afterall people die) nothing of the world lasts forever. Only God's love. And it is love that sustains me each day.
I know I probably sound extremely weird talking about such an abstract thing called god's love. And sure many people would just classify me as some kind of holy girl. But in reality I know. Better I'm not some kind of holy girl in fact im not holy AT ALL. I do sinful stuff everyday, I lie, I don't put god as priority, I make use of others and judge other people. I don't get perfect grades , I'm not pretty or kind. I am lazy beyond words and I am incoherent most of the time. But ultimately despite all my imperfections and ugliness I know that god loves me, and he has been with me each and everyday guiding me and keeping me away from temptations like going clubbing and having sex and wtv LOL. So god is a GREAT GOD. Cause he loves me despite my horridness and sinfulness. Of course I must obey him too.
Kk that's all I wanted to say ❤❤❤ loves from home bye
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