hypocritical me

My brotherrr’s angry at me cause i chased him of the computerrr to use it. but it’s MINE right >:( i thought i was being kind but i guess not. neh mind. i’m a horrid sister.

There’s going to be a 5N BBQ on friday the 17th(bet u thought it was going to be friday the 13th or something like that! bwhahaha got u((:), YX and FY are going to bring booze >:( never really drank before plus i can’t really hold my liquor cause I HAVEN’T DRUNK MORE THAT RED WINE BEFORE. (kk maybe i drank stole some liquor from my dad’s cabinet cause i was curious but it was just a teeny weeny bit! i promise! ended up sleeping like a log after drinking it hmmm) so just pray that i don’t drink and embarrass myself! and fart or something :X. hmm let’s see what else. didn’t study at all today. cause i was a lazy bum which also means i have alot to catch up tonight. gonna burn midnight oil!! gotta do some math so i can consult ocl during the BBQ. the pros of having ur math cher going for ur class BBQ((: hmm yeahh that’s about all.

wish i was living in some period drama! no stress of A levels plus you don’t really do muchh just the occasional hic ups along the way which u have to solve. anws some random thoughts.

im turning 18th soon and i still feel like a kid): i don’t really wanna grow old and dull and have all that responsibilities that make ur hair turn white. k silver. but then again i know it can’t be helped and i need to become a strong and firm pillar that would be able to support both myself and other people in my life. like my family and friends. i know deep down i’m ready to take on more responsibilities and become more mature. yett i also know that deep down i’m afraid. i’m still that insecure girl who’s shy and afraid of what people think of me. maybe i’m not soooo affected compared to the past but i’m still scared )): hoho i think i’m a loser )): k neh mind. anws the only reason why i’m still blogging is because i like the feeling of doing some random search and chancing upon random things that tell me how i was in the past. and i want to like chance upon this blog 10years down the road and feel happy about how i was like when i was 18. hehe or maybe i will be like gross, i was a gross 18 year old. who knows what the future holds. who knows? God knows:D yeeahh. so that’s all just some random thoughhhts. time to go do math~ BMT with my bro tmr then studying with moo. byee~