YAY. i'm happy this way.
today has been like a really weird day
i think xinmun's moodswings have rubbed of me.
just feel damn stressed over everything.

NO PROGRESS.(okay maybe a teenyweeny bit)
and i really dun want to be bothered anymore.
MAJOR character difference
LOLS.

í feel quite sad cause i really cannot maintain my stupid friendships.
(maybe cause their all superficial?) it's like i dun even talk to anyone anymore except joycelin.
that's right i don't even talk to xinmun... cause it's either i'm stone or she's stone D:
i guess we have way much in difference D:

HAHAS. and she gets way irritated at my messy ways 0.o.
i miss linxuan/; okay goal for term 2 is to talk to xinmun more and payattention.
cancel the rest. IMPOSSIBLE TO DO THEM ALL.

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to tell the absolute truth, i was damnzxc sad today.
for i dunno what reason. maybe many.
maybe cause i feel so damn disappointed about pesa and idunno. i just want to forget it.
so much about having talents. D:

maybe cause it feels likethe whole world hates me and that i'm super mean and self centred and act pity whatever.

maybe cause i am freaking scared about the up coming test. AND i left my bleedy bio file in school D: and i dun understand bio chem phyy mathxzx. D; and chinese. AND SCS.

and maybe cause i feel so alone. God i need you.

ohwells. "come to me all those weary and burdened and i will give you rest"
"i am beautifully and wonderfully made" "God's grace is sufficient for me" and "ask and you will recieve"

God please forgive me for my terrible sins D:

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HAHAS! anws today lessons was extremly boring cause i changed place with xm and nobody talked to me at all. almost died. ohwells who ask me change place hor? :D

nehmind. it's for a good cause. XD

left immediately after school, had some doctors appointment. BYEBYE STINKING PIMPLES hates you to the core. ohhhwells it felt so much better to be at home that at school. the whole atmosphere is DIFFERENT.

suo wei: there's no place like home.

how true man.
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i need to step out of the emo phase. or whatever RIGHT NOW. RIGHT THIS MOMENT.
i need to stop boring joycelin with my incoherent tots and restricting her. BLAHHHS.
i need to walk closer to god and trust god finatially spiritually and in my studies.

harts God to the max.

kkz. i want to go watch girls out loud! PROMISE TO STUDY TOMORROW.

jiayou FSD RVNCC :D:D