hello susane.

it's been really long since i've written a letter to you...
don't ask me why write again now... i don't know. it could be hormones? it could be lust? it could be a surge of emotions or it could be randomness.

but all i know is that i feel terrible. i finally embraced God's purpose for me today i guess... Even though i don't know what is my purpose or where this purpose will lead me to all i know is that i must have faith (goh). BUT I STILL FEEL TERRIBLE CAUSE I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO START ON THE STUPID SPEECH/;

today i was late for school. i knew i was going to be late but i didn't try to hide or run away, for that I'm proud of myself.

i've spent a majority of my life trying to avoid punishment, lying and blaming others to get away. i rather hide in the darkness of my timidity then face up to the sword of righteousness and punishment and i'm sick of being THAT.... SUO TOU WU GUI.

i'm not going to run away anymore, gan zuo gan dang.

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anws it suddenly seems as though langarts the only lesson i enjoy.
i'm going to start on my speech now.

GOD BLESS ME.