crushes are stupid things HAHAHA.
one things for sure is that i'll never crush again.


anws


bmt training sucked
the jarring fact that i'm mediocre keeps popping up everytime during training and it makes me really pissed. pissed with myself( not you jan, shir, wendy.1e or any random person that actually bothers about whether i'm pissed) it's just so painful you know that you life has become like this. pathatic. booya i wish i could relive my life and be somebody that's smart, pretty and KIND or whatever larh.


whatever happened to my passion? can you believe that i actually CRIED to get into bmt? look at me now...
i bet you'll never guess.


i wish i never entered rv, i wish i never joined badminton.
may be cause i realised all my friendship comes down to moot.
i just want a best friend, please be my best friend.

it's funny how people say i pretend to be happy, cause you know what? pretending to be happy is inevitable, for me atleast. if i am sad and remain sad, tell me who would actually bother? no one?
oh wells maybe i should stop being so self-centered and MEAN. cause life's a piece of shit. grin and bear gayle.

oh whatever the point of this pointless post, anws shirlynn i can't be bothered anymore with being mean, cause in reality being mean only makes me hate myself more/; ( so please stop telling me to be mean ) whatever i felt about " mean is good" i take it back, what can i say? i'm fickle and hypocritic

further more, i cannot be mean anymore cause god wants us/me to be kind and i need to reflect him, grow closer to him asap. gahs go the second mile gayle, wendy's pm says it all.

well gone are the days of mean gayle. i need to be nicer, maybe then i can love myself more. love others more, love God more.

what can i say, time change, people change, surroundings change, and i have changed.





anws

i have no talents.

life's a blast.

and i hate it.