stop being so pretentious you stupid girl/;

i can't act like i'm positive anymore. i fell so empty.
so much for being more optimistic this year. i feel like giving up.
i hate facing ordeals or mid life crisis's

i feel like an old ah ma. old ahmas with foul moods/;

hello i even dress like an old ahma. D:
maybe i should get my clothes at salvation army bukit timah.

*****
why do i feel as if all the people around me are leaving me.
why do i feel so mean and spiteful
why do i hate myself so.

why do i runaway?

cause it's so much easier then facing up to life.

*****

they once was a box of chocolates owned by a little boy,
the little boy loved to collect chocolates from everywhere.

the box of chocolates contained really special chocolates.
no two chocolates were the same.

each one had their on flavour, wrapper and shape.

yellow one's, blue ones, strawberry flavored ones, candy coated ones, pig shaped ones, heart shape ones. ones of each and every part of the world.


out of the many many chocolates, there was this chocolate.

it was stuck at the corner of the metal box, buried under the mass of chocolates, blocked away from the world, broken and bruised on the inside.

she was melting soon to be disappearing.

wrapped up in a dull brown wrapping paper with no words no pictures no nothing, she attracted no attention to herself, or simply putting it, nobody noticed her.

she had a really boring shape that was not interesting and definitely not appealing. her flavour was rather bland too. not sweet not bitter. she tasted just like how cheapo chocolates taste like. PLASTIC.

she was a wall flower. nobody noticed her.
nobody wanted her/;

everybody around her seemed so special, so attractive so delicious so unique so so so EVERYTHING.

" i have the nicest wrapper in the world!" " i taste like fluffy marshmallow baked to perfection with chocolate." "people just want me so bad!" too bad she couldn't say it and mean it.

she had watched chocolates come and go, attractive ones, one's with beautiful flavour, different and unique ones. the came and went in a flash, she felt so unwanted, so lonely so USELESS.

everyone seemed to have their own strong points everyone seemed to have talents,
everyone. everyone. except her....

why couldn't she see her strengths?



OH YOU KNOW WHAT?

just let that stupid chocolate melt.