feels so nice to be at home.

i'm in this mood where i don't feel like going out at all, in this mood where all i want to do is stay at home and watch korean dramas or sleep. in this mood where nothing appeals me at all except chad micheal murray (HOT BOD)

during this past week it felt like a month passed by. oh maybe it did, it's feb already... but still. IT FELT REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LONGGGGGGGG. and it sucked.

it's like so many things happened. CNY. duakim's funeral. School. first bmt competition for bdiv (which i didn't participate in), cca, school, getting caught for short skirt WHEN IT WAS NOT SHORT, feeling lousy about myself, feeling bad for causing joyceling to feel lousy as well. School. treating my friends like crap. singing karoke in school/; geography test, lessons lessons and more lessons. what not?

i feel like running away. there used to be this song i kept singing... forgot most of it but it went like this: running awayyyyy i can't.......~~~~

and i feel like the song now. running awayyy i can't face up with reality.
and i'm starting to dread cca. bmt lessons in school. pe. it just makes me feel really crappyily lousy. which, sadly to say i am.

if there's like this list somewhere in the world that records down one's pro's and cons, my con's list will be like brimming with weakness and my pro's list will have less then 5.... WAIT! let me correct that. my pro's list will have nada shit. and i hate knowing that fact.

why does my lousiness keep screaming at me. taunting me. laughing at me.
wanna know why???


cause i'm mad. crazy. kookuuu. shen jing bing.

that's all i have to say, going to seek escape in korean dramas for now. and if u ask me why it's not God. i dunno. D;

drifting of to nowhere.

p/s and i hate it that people are so superficial and fake. oh wells i hate myself the most cause i'm the most superficial bitch ever. applause for my frank confession.

I AM A SUPERFICIAL BITCH.