feeling kinda crap now D; dunno why.
lets analyze it later :D

oh whatever~

how bout a round of applause. standing ovation.

don't tell me your sorry cause your not D;
baby but i know your only sorry you got caught
cause you put up quite a show
really got me going.

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excretion and kidneys was studying that for like one hour just now,
gayle is so ill disciplined and easily distracted D;
i really dunno what i will be like next time
i think i'll probably clean some toilet somewhere D;

future-less.

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i'm not caring enough.
i'm not kind enough.
i'm so damn mean.
i hate my mouth.
i hate myself.

sometimes i really wish i had no brains;
no brains equates no ability to think.
no ability to think equates to me being able to love and care.

i wish i could never get irritated.

seriously i don't know whats wrong with me right now, i feel like the worlds meanest person.
and the world's meanest person does not deserve friends.
and sometimes i wonder why i can't be more accepting.
sometimes i wonder why we never mixed with some people.
and sometimes i wonder what is it like being them, being excluded.
D;

i wonder what is it like to be judged by whats your skin colour or whats you body size.
i wonder why people including myself think being so fat is something bad and that scolding someone fat is bad.
i don't want to be a weight conscious person.


insecurities.
why am i not good enough
not smart enough.
not KIND enough.
not LOVING enough.

not thin enough,
not pretty enough.

really tired of thinking so much.


you know what u think i;m going crazy just thinking bout this.

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