a week just passed.

don't feel like counting the days to mid years):

a week, so many things can happen in a week.
a week, enough time to make one feel happy to the high heavens or down in the dumps.
a week, enough time to cause hurt to someone, enough time to make someone love you.

you'll be suprised how much can change in a week.

i feel really stressed out.
what if i don't meet up with expectations and do badly for my tests?!
i'm scared really scared.

i want to study hard, i'm studying very hard.
but what if i still don't make it?
i really feel like giving up.

whats the point of studying?! you ready did so badly anyway.

you want to do well remember, you can do it.
you want to excel, you want to prove to the world you can do it
remember!

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but can i? can i really?

i feel really stressed,
what should i do? give up? or face up with the hurt all over again.
i want to give up. really want to give up.
but yet half of me won't give up.


i may act like it doesn't matter,
but it matters. ALOT
but i do want your encouragement,
i want you to praise me for working hard,
i want you to tell me i'm good, i'm hard working
i want you to tell me i'm SMART.

tell me i can do it,
tell me not to give up,
tell me i'm smart.

I REALLY CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE.

i'm not that perfect. i'm just like anyone.
i feel like giving up. i want to give up.
i want to fade away. fade into this wall and disappear.

i need your expectations. high ones.
tell me i can do it. tell me i can.
thats all i need. i need the faith. the trust.
i need the SUPPORT.

don't make me, don't tell me to study harder.
tell me i'm studying really hard now.
tell me i'm doing just fine.
just tell me i can, with my own effort.

TELL ME!
TELL ME I CAN REST.
TELL ME!

DON'T MAKE ME STUDY HARDER! I CAN'T TAKE IT.
I'M TRYING! REALLY TRYING.

but i'm going to snap.
i'm like this thread that is gonna snap in anyone pulls me.
I DON'T NEED MORE STRESS.
ALL I NEED IS YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT.

sorry. just feeling really weird. with all the exams coming up.
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gayle