weirded De Gan2 jue2

don't really know what's wrong with me this few days D:

I'm like unstable all the time D:
mentally; physically; emotionally; spiritually; socially
whatever ways.

urggh.

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after losing the match to teck whye,
my badminton life felt like it just crashed.

bmt?
the dejectedness, the failure.

why am i in bmt?
what good would i do for rvb D:

yes yong zhi is right i am LAN.

hiiax when i lost the match nothing really mattered anymore,

not rvb,
not the passion for badminton,
not EVEN the LOVE for my bmt mates and seniors,

i really really really really felt like quiting bmt.

it just felt like i trained for NOTHING??!!
and that after what coach did for us we failed him

hiiax i WANT-ed to train hard,
but now it's mix feelings.
what with feeling that coach is bayous.
and ALL.

and then it's the i don't care bout him thing.
then i don't want to train le D:

haix. sorry i know i was a spoilt brat today D:

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jia you!
gayle you must train harder
to prove to coach you can do it :D