ok feeling really weirded now D:
pms-ed up again i guess D:
and i just like posted the post D:

anws i hope you will NEVER read this.
cause i don't mean it.
ok i MEAN it but just for now D:

and PLEASE don't bother to read this D:
i beg of you, anyone.


i thought i meant more to you then
you URH HEM friends.
and i thought of you as my
BESTEST BESTEST friend.
maybe i THOUGHT too much but...
it just pains me.

ok! maybe i'm just JEALOUS about
u and xx cause you are all SO close
to ur cca and URH HEM.
see i'm such a lousy friend D:
i depend too much on your.

cause to me u are like my LIFE.
while YOUR LIFE revolves around
URH HEM and your "dears"

ok so now i'm seriously feeling
really insecure with you and xx
cause i thought you gals would NEVER
leave me and i guess now i have no one u
talk to and confide to cause
i would feel insecure that u would think i'm mean and stuff.

and it's like i can't confide to XXX
and now i can't confide to the XXXX
gosh. who am i to confide in.
apart from GOD?

so yeah maybe you would list out my parents and BLAH.
but then it would show you REALLY don't know me
since we practicaly known each other for 4years??!!

ok crap larh.
i'm holding you back
i'm holding you BOTH back for my OWN selfish reasons D:

but it's like w/o you guys i'll REALLY hate school.
what should I do??!! D:

let them go,

don't let them go?

pick one. but don't read.

so yeah i feel really screwed now.
and really feel like such a LOUSY friend.
i wish i really was better than at least i won't feel so inferior to you gals

don't feel like going to school le.

what with the XXX prob ( which was MY fault )
and now the XXX'X prob

i feel really like such a LOUSY friend

if you are reading this which i really hope you are not.
i really hope u don't feel that i am writing this because
i want people to feel sorry for me.
cause i DON'T
anws i doupt i have any friends that really are MY friends.
cause i'm so freaking self centered.see?


actually i feel better already :D

and i have decided to LET THEM GO.
i can't be so self centred :D

they can't be stuck with you forever u'll just tie them back!

:D

JIA YOU GAYLE :D
DO NOT BE SELF CENTRED

mature people ain't self centred :D

ok this is all crap!
so PLEASE DON'T read

NONSENSICAL POST :D