i am really pissed with myself!
it's like no mather HOW serious/hard i train,
i just can't improve!

my lob sucks! i TRIED i really did!
i tried my very very very best today.
i put in my 1000 and 1 % but i just couldn't lob D:

today coach was really angry with us.
and it was all our fault.
we didn't put in enough effort!
he totally didn't bother about the girls,
i guess he gave up hope on us. D:

you know when u scold other people useless and hopeless
you won't feel anything, but when ignored you will feel really really hopeless D:
i just don't have the FIGHTING spirit D:
cause everytime i finally gain back the fighting spirit
i think about coach and feel very given up upon D:
then i think that nomather what happens we will not be able to go to nationals
and i become depressed and the fighting spirit is just not there!
i know i promised i will train super super super hard and stuff
so i will but i don't know.........just feel very dejected.

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coach's disapointed face

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seniors disapointed face

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our OWN disapointed face

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{ i feel like crying just thinking about it } D:



anyways on a LIGHTER note :D

after training today,
janice, kathy and i took 97 together :D

then later jan and i dropped of at je library that side.
cause janice needed to cut her hair
and me being SO kind decided to go with her XP
the we got cornered by a group of ppl............
(haiix. let's not talk about being cornered.)

and in the end.............

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:D

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:D

jan realised she didn't have enough $$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(which was partially my fault cause i didn't return her $5)

lols.

so close yet so far.

p/s happy birthday KAIXIN :D my beloved junior
- sorry for having AP just now D:
- i was pissed at myself NOT you D:

p/p/s sorry 1e, dixun, and shirlynn D: i was such a A.P.E!
sorry i'll bring the money on mon. I PROMISE D: